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.Sunday, March 26, 2006

the end of my long weekend

school's starting again tomorrow.
damn. the long awaited long weekend just totally went by.
how disgusting is that?
i was supposed to meet up with chah, rachel and milene!!
but milene was working and our dear miss tann rachel was just too lazy to get her bum out of her house to meet me in town!!
so i just spent my two days meeting milene for like 2mins at her workplace
and the rest of the time was spent on my retail therepy & wee!! (:
i've decided not to buy that uber nice top when i saw another girl trying it on as well.
i totally adore this topshop top.
i love the white and brown one. but the brown one was wayy too common cos my size was sold out in one outlet. and the white one is relatively see-through unless you wear the correct stuff underneath. HAHA.
i'm having a fetish for looking at pretty tubes but i don't intend to buy any.
haha. don't have the figure i guess.

i think i was very very nice indeed to start cooking for him.
haha. his mummy and daddy has already eaten and are resting in the room.
so why do i have to bother them just to feed that hungry pig?
i cooked my special sunny-side up. haha. it's different from the normal ones. (:
butter prawns, fried fish & some chinese mushrooms. not alot.
but it's a big improvement for a girl who doesn't cook at home and the only cooking skills i learnt was from home economics classes at mgs. at least it didn't go to waste!!

& i've started my math tuition.
haha. my tuition teacher had a shock to see the way pjc teaches our mathematics.
it's different from every other jc. so i guess i'll have to learn his way.
besides it's easier to understand. since i'm not fabulous at memorising formulas. it's good. cos i can't remember any formula that i memorised for the common test.
it just hasn't sunk into my brain yet.
i want to go shopping somemore after seeing that ching spent like so much in one day.
haha. but meeting up with chah, milene & rachel is more important for the next weekend.
i miss all my friends and i suddenly wished that i didnt have to study hard for this year and i could spend my time just chilling with them and catching up with old times.
chah - the first 3 month days
milene - the mgs days since primary one.
rachel - everyday life.

yup. signing off.

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.Friday, March 24, 2006

no more common test.

today marks the end of the common test.
it's been a really bad week for me. with the lack of sleep.
unfrequent meals everyday. thus the increasing number of pimples!!
haha. tim was like "oh my gosh. a pimple!! it's like the prettiest thing ever lahh" IDIOT.
so i went shopping today with buying a top in mind. with white ballet flats.
but in the end i got one denim shorts and 2 pretty shoes which none of them were ballet flats. and none were white!! (: haha.
i saw another top that i totally totally adored.
but my financial status ran low after the shoes. so no pretty top for me.

today i realised how fragile and frail the human body can be,
yet the human will is so strong.
i was at bugis and i saw this crippled old man on a wheelchair selling tissues.
when it rained, he had to go to the shelter, and even before the rain totally stopped, he moved out into the choicest location to sell again.
it's so difficult to have a living in Singapore.
after i saw the old man, i just had no mood to do anything.
i was sad. yes sad.
i know what he does doesn't concern me and i shouldn't be bothered, but i was.
i wasn't happy though i bought what i bought.
i wasn't happy though i was window shopping and grocery shopping.
even eating till my hearts content.
but i was sad. i wished there was something i could do for him.
but i can't. i'm glad that the old man faces life so courageously with only one leg.
a lesson learnt today. treasure what i have. my health, 2eyes, 1nose, 1mouth, 2ears, 4limbs.

a thought for me today: a social worker or a geography teacher?

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.Saturday, March 18, 2006

my bittersweet geography.

to my dearest geography:

i do admit now that i'm having a love-hate relationship with you.
my oh my are you a tough cookie to ace.
your interesting and very useful in the context of the world.
so we know why it's hot in singapore in march and september.
how the monsoon rain comes about.
what happens to the water after it falls from the sky to the ground.
how come some pieces of rock are made of clay, others of granite.
why flood occurs.
maybe even how earthquakes occur, volcanoes are formed.
the population problems the world faces.
how tourism can help the economy.
maybe even the pros and cons with too many people around.
or maybe even too few.
but for you, there are so many facts to learn.
so many concepts we need to memorise.
so many things to do just for you.
but with such little time, how can i make this alright.
don't get me wrong. i still love you. i adore you, geography.
but pray listen to me, you're not the only subject i have.
i have econs and mathematics.
you can't be so selfish as to make me fall so in love with you
that i frustrate myself just understanding you.
you know you are tough to understand, don't you?
your bittersweet you know?
sometimes you harm us, sometimes you show us the world.
what am i to do for you?
believe me i still love you, lest why would i want to spend my whole life as a geog teacher spreading the goodness of you around?

so sue me, i've gone mad. completely psycho.
i'm writing to a subject that i take. why?

ONE full day of studying. from the morning i learnt about slopes and weathering.
till the afternoon, i'm at hydrology.
writing out drqs and essays.
and i realised. WHERE IS MY CLIMOTOLOGY?
it's no where to be found in my brain.
i'm stress. i'm laughing. listening to the calling, the killers, nickelback and rob thomas!!
i've been stuffing my face with salmon cheese rolls, fried eggs, loads and loads of plain water. WARM plain water.
why? cos i'm sick of being sick.
it's been a month, and i'm not getting any better.
i should see a doctor. the stress is getting to me.
2 more days till the beginning, and 7 days till the end.
time's gonna fly. i just never want my results back.

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the many tasks and the little time

things i have to cover this week lest i want to fail really badly.

[updated.]
1) ~~complete econs nia notes and~~ study nia
2) ~~complete econs nid notes and~~ study nia
3) read through the model essays mdm khoo gave us
4) ~~revise market structure notes~~
5) complete urban geography notes and study urban geog
6) do one drq and one essay for practice
7) study population geography
8) do practice for population geography
9) ~~plate tectonics & weathering for geog~~
10) ~~practice one drq & one essay for rocks&weathering~~
11) climotology notes for geog
12) ~~geog notes on hydrology~~ and study hydrology

yay. the common test are coming in a zooming lightning.
am i near to ready for it?
i've been down and demoralised for mathematics.
these 9 tasks will make me a mugger by day and by night.
no life for me.
apologies to sally for not being able to attend her party due to the common tests.
apologies to all my friends who have asked me out.
& a thousand apologies to milene for not spending enough time with you even though you just came back from aussie and are stuck in singapore. blame it on the hectic jc life i live.
i'm almost done with the first task.
i'm going to complete my notes before dinner and study them after dinner.
7 days with 9 things to do. can i make it? will i break.
this 7 days will make or break me.
if i get agitated easily and start screaming, i apologise in advance.
i may have queer happiness and moodswings as well. i hope not.
i still love you all the same.

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.Saturday, March 11, 2006

haitus gone. for now.

the march "holidays" have officially started.
the teachers in mg are right, they told us that the last holiday we'll have until we finish the a's will be the december holidays after our o levels.
it's true. we have to study for every other holiday until the end of the as.
the school's getting stricter with the rules and the criteria of promotion.
we need to pass 3 a levels to stay in jc2 or so they say before they call our parents.
and if we don't meet the criteria to continue in jc2, they CLAIM that there isn't any space left in the jc1 cohort so we get kicked out.
but hello. the jc1 only have 700 people or so, we have a thousand.
jc2 is definitely more hectic and it's amazing how fast time ~~flies~~ zooms by!!
it's scary. just one year ago at this time, i was still an ogl for orientation 2
and now, i'm studying just like the jc2s were last year.
common test will be over before we know it.
the gp paper was tricky and maybe impossible to do.
i did an essay about "to what extent do we have control over our lives".
and the math paper was a killer.
i wanted to cry when i opened the paper. i studied hard for it and it demoralises me even before i start the paper.
the first word i said out loud was "it's not funny lahh"
and the only question i confidently completed, to my surprise was CURVE SKETCHING and MACLAURINE SERIES. and these two topics were the worst for me before i had mugger session with aby.
die le.
haha. i'm currently destressing for saturday and sunday. so if any of you dear friends of mine miss me, call me out ya? haha.
clement's birthday thingie on sunday. i'm going out for movie and a little of econs today.
just econs tys. my brain's tired.
and i've been having coughs for like 2+ weeks.
i think i should be seeing a doctor soon. at times i just can't breathe.
i don't want to die. i got loads to do in life. like travel the world, be a good geog teacher, help the poor, love my friends. so many things!! (:
doctor doctor, here i come!! (:

PS: & i've been playing this online mcdonalds game which is damn tough to play for destressing purposes.

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.Wednesday, March 01, 2006

release of the a's

i know i'm supposed to be on a hiatus.
but the release of the a level results have to be made known to the world.
it was definitely an eye opener for me to sit in that stuffy hall with the seniors around.
some did, well, very well, others did not too bad but some didn't do very well.
i was scared. cos i had faith that they would do well, but didn't.
i got back my chinese ao results though.
i was jumping like a mad monkey when i got my results.
i only wished all along that i would get a d7 so that i won't have to do chinese for one more year.
but i got more than i asked for. i got a c5!! (: PRAISE THE LORD.
i prayed before the paper for wisdom and to remember everything learnt in secondary school.
and it worked perfectly well despite the tummyache and the frequent visits to the toilet during the main paper itself.
c5 may not be anything to most people, but mind you, i'm a girl that teachers have ZERO faith in.
so there. as for my math in school, mummy might want to get me math tuition since teachers aren't really bothering to help me when i need them around.
BUT i've proven one teacher wrong, and i'm going to prove the rest who don't believe in me wrong.
and i promised mr osman that i'll do well in geog, and that promise, i WILL keep.
the geog results was scary. approximately 86% of the cohort passed geog.
but pjc will be good in geog, my year will be the year to make the school proud. i hope.
i have to get back to my mugging if i really want to do well. (:
all the econs and essay writings. i'll survive them all.
hiatus again.

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